• 22nd January
    2013
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A year has passed, but you’re still the one I can always count on. I will not love you for the rest of your life, but I will love you for the rest of my life. HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY đź’‹ @berdiansyah

A year has passed, but you’re still the one I can always count on. I will not love you for the rest of your life, but I will love you for the rest of my life. HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY đź’‹ @berdiansyah

  • 24th July
    2012
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  • 23rd July
    2012
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Letter #7

Dear Beyi,

You enrich my life, you inspire me to be the best that I can be, and you bring peace into my life.

Thank you so much ber.
You deserve #100 letters on my tumblr.

I love u to infinity and beyond.

Bunch of love,
Your ex, Clrs

  • 23rd July
    2012
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Letter #6

Dear Beyi,

My feelings for you are truly unconditional. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for your love. I’ve only known you for less than a year, but it doesn’t matter how long I’ve know you coz you’ve already made an impact in my life.

You’re most definitely the best thing I never knew I needed. Take my love and multiply it by infinity and take it to forever and it still wouldn’t completely describe how I feel for you…

I knew what I was getting myself into when I started courting you. I knew what kind of relationship it would be and I still chose you, coz you’re the only one I want. For as long I can have you…

All the wait for the next hug, the next kiss, the next time I could hold your hand is worth it. I love the way you hug me and it feels like it’s the first time we’ve hugged in awhile. The look in your eyes that got me hypnotized. The way you make my heart race when you kiss me softly. Like I said before, missing you makes our next meeting more special. each time we spend together, it feels as special as the first.

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN MODELS LOVE MIRRORS

love, Clrs

  • 23rd July
    2012
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Letter #4

Dear Beyi,

The best feeling in the world is knowing that when I need someone to talk to, you’re always one text away. You’re always there to listen and make me feel better. No matter how bad my mood is, all I need is your reassurance and I instantly feel all better and there’s nothing I can ask more for from my friend than that. You may be far away, but you’re always on my mind and in my heart. Your words mean the world to me.

I know the right boy has come along, coz you don’t even have to try to make me feel better, it just happens. =)

The handsome in your eyes, makes me realize the only thing important in life is to have you in my life. I could care less about anything else coz you and your love is all that matters to me.

LOVE, CLRS
  • 21st July
    2012
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Letter #5

Dear Beyi,

I’m the type of person that likes to make plans. I want to get things done right, I wanna have a sense of direction of where I’m headed in life. You told me that trying to get with you would be a waste of my time. So the plan was to not fall for you. But I did fall for you. I woke up one morning and I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t have a plan, I just knew that I wanted you. And now all I wanna do is stay with you for as long as I possibly can. Because you’re just all that matters to me. And i’m trying to figure out where we’re headed in the future. But I don’t have any idea how to get there. I don’t have any idea what the future brings, but I want to love you for my whole life. Whenever i’m not with you I miss your mind, body, and soul and you never fail to take my breath away. And whenever i’m near you, I breathe you into my heart coz that’s where you belong.

They say “Anyone can love a million boys” but I wanna love one boy (you) a million ways, ber..

Please forgive me. I’m begging you for this.

Love,
CLRS

  • 3rd April
    2012
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Letter #3

Dear Beyi,

I’m not perfect. You aren’t either and the two of us won’t ever be perfect. I’m not going to quote poetry, I’m not thinking about you every minute of every day, but I will give you a part of me that I know you can break -my heart. Don’t hurt me, don’t change me, don’t expect more of me than I can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when I make you happy, yell when I make you mad, and miss me when i’m not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Perfect people don’t exist, but there’s always one person who’s perfect for you. I’ve found my perfect person and I’m hoping I can be your perfect person.

I love you ber…til infinity

Love,

R

  • 2nd April
    2012
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Letter #2

Dear Beyi,

I’ve been going through so much lately. I haven’t found a lot of reasons to smile, but I want to let you know that whenever I feel like crying and breaking down I think of you and I manage a smile. You make me happy and the thought of you reassures me that everything will be ok. You don’t know how many times I’ve held myself back from crying. As strong as I make myself look, I am weak inside. If there had to be anyone in this world that could always make me smile, it would be you. It would be you because of all the simple things you do in life that make me happy. It’s because your smile makes me smile and the thought of you makes me smile. I don’t know what my life would be life if I didn’t meet you. It would probably be plain and untouched by love. I’d probably end up liking some other person, who of course wouldn’t ever compare to what you mean to me. When I look into your eyes, I see love. I see everything, I see you. I can give you my heart and my love right now and forever. I hope nothing between us will ever change, but if anything had to change, it would be the love I have for you, because it would get stronger everyday.

Love,

R

  • 2nd April
    2012
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Letter #1

Dear beyi,

I’m sorry for all the fights we’ve been through. I’m sorry if I get jealous. I’m sorry if I act childish sometimes. I’m sorry if I’m a pain in the ass sometimes. And I’m sorry for everything that I do to make you unhappy. I thank you for all the smiles that you bring me, all the happiness you can give me. I thank you for being there for when I need you the most. Thank you for brightening up my day. If you make me cry, then that’s okay. Just don’t make that a habit. If you hold my hand, hold it tight so that you can make sure that I don’t slip away. If you hold me, just know that I won’t stop smiling. I want you to know that if I ever do slip away, I didn’t want to, but it was something that I couldn’t help. And when I realize how stupid I was, I hope that you still haven’t given up on me yet. And I hope that you’ll still be there to give me another chance because I would give you that second chance. I I know that there’ll be times where I can’t always make you happy. I know that there will be times where I won’t be able to see you because of your family, but know that I really just want to be with you right at that moment and know that I just want to be in your arms. I don’t need you to kiss me every minute like how some couples are because I’d rather you just surprise me. I’ll love it when you make me laugh, even if it’s something completely stupid, a cheesy joke, a silly face, anything, I’ll love it. I’ll introduce you to my friends if you want and you can introduce me to yours, but that really doesn’t matter to me. Knowing you is good enough for me. I won’t fall for any of boys because why would I want them when I have you? I just hope that you can do the same. I’ll watch movies with you all day if you wanted to - your favorite movies, my favorite movies, new movies, any movie. We can go to the park and run around you can chase me around the playground. We can stay up all night on the phone and not even say anything to each other. I’ll do everything ber..

Love,

R

  • 28th February
    2012
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I have never been strong enough to stay. People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn’t. staying, even when you know it will break your heart, is the hardest thing. Staying right where you are, waiting for your entire world to be ripped into pieces is much harder than walking away and starting a new one.
  • 28th February
    2012
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I don’t know what you are doing now, where your thoughts are wandering, or even what the sky looks like from where you’re standing. I wanted to let you know that I’m okay, I’m not bawling like an idiot, nor have I felt my heart break especially since you leave. I’m strong, but you already knew that.

I don’t understand what’s going on. I don’t deserve this, and I don’t deserve to be treated this way. My heart is breaking, and the person causing this damage is genuinely the one person I never thought would actually hurt me like this.

You’ve promised me so much, and you know just how much a promise means to me. You have never given me a reason to not trust you. I don’t understand.

I simply physically do not get it.

You’re pushing away and ruining a perfectly good relationship, and I don’t even know why. I haven’t done anything. I never thought you’d be the one to hurt me this badly. I know you too well to give up on you, but I feel like that’s really the only option I have left. I don’t deserve to be treated like this. I’ve done nothing but support and care for you.

Not being with you is difficult. It’s probably one of the most difficult things that I’ve done; it’s hard trying to fit a puzzle together when you’re missing a piece.

I loved you, and I hate what you’re doing to me. There’s so much more I want to say to you, and trust me they’re not as calm as this.

Love,

  • 28th February
    2012
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I don’t know what happened between us. We just seemed to drift apart. After all we’ve been through… The things we said, the fun we had, the times we shared.
Can you look at me now? And tell me you never really cared? I know my insecurities makes you frustrated and mad

The memories of our times together burn like a fire in my soul. Sometimes all I can think about is you. And I really lose control!

I am sorry
You think I am wrong for loving you
But you have to believe me… I REALLY DO! I know there have been others for you, But none could love you as I do.
When I remember the life we created together And how when it ended I was shattered. I wish we could have shared so much…

My life seems so empty.  
And I have to keep telling myself that no matter what, everything’s going to be okay.

And you have all the memories as I do too.
Maybe one day I will be able to smile again, letting the smile come from my heart.

But I am still trying to put the pieces back together, that you tore, so mercilessly, apart.
 
Well, I guess, you have to tell me what are we always fighting about, cause I really don’t know.


I know you loved me, too.
You said you did…
But I guess you never loved me as much as I love you.
I’ve been through worse
And I can get through this, too.
I will not try to find anyone else.
Because right now, all I can think about is you….

Please tell me what happened Ber……

  • 2nd December
    2011
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I’d be reaching for a good night kiss instead of one more beer

Randy Houser - Anything Goes

  • 25th October
    2011
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  • 16th October
    2011
  • 16
just because someone is younger in age, doesn’t mean he’s younger in act.