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Dear Beyi,

I’m not perfect. You aren’t either and the two of us won’t ever be perfect. I’m not going to quote poetry, I’m not thinking about you every minute of every day, but I will give you a part of me that I know you can break -my heart. Don’t hurt me, don’t change me, don’t expect more of me than I can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when I make you happy, yell when I make you mad, and miss me when i’m not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Perfect people don’t exist, but there’s always one person who’s perfect for you. I’ve found my perfect person and I’m hoping I can be your perfect person.

I love you ber…til infinity

Love,

R

Dear Beyi,

I’ve been going through so much lately. I haven’t found a lot of reasons to smile, but I want to let you know that whenever I feel like crying and breaking down I think of you and I manage a smile. You make me happy and the thought of you reassures me that everything will be ok. You don’t know how many times I’ve held myself back from crying. As strong as I make myself look, I am weak inside. If there had to be anyone in this world that could always make me smile, it would be you. It would be you because of all the simple things you do in life that make me happy. It’s because your smile makes me smile and the thought of you makes me smile. I don’t know what my life would be life if I didn’t meet you. It would probably be plain and untouched by love. I’d probably end up liking some other person, who of course wouldn’t ever compare to what you mean to me. When I look into your eyes, I see love. I see everything, I see you. I can give you my heart and my love right now and forever. I hope nothing between us will ever change, but if anything had to change, it would be the love I have for you, because it would get stronger everyday.

Love,

R

Dear beyi,

I’m sorry for all the fights we’ve been through. I’m sorry if I get jealous. I’m sorry if I act childish sometimes. I’m sorry if I’m a pain in the ass sometimes. And I’m sorry for everything that I do to make you unhappy. I thank you for all the smiles that you bring me, all the happiness you can give me. I thank you for being there for when I need you the most. Thank you for brightening up my day. If you make me cry, then that’s okay. Just don’t make that a habit. If you hold my hand, hold it tight so that you can make sure that I don’t slip away. If you hold me, just know that I won’t stop smiling. I want you to know that if I ever do slip away, I didn’t want to, but it was something that I couldn’t help. And when I realize how stupid I was, I hope that you still haven’t given up on me yet. And I hope that you’ll still be there to give me another chance because I would give you that second chance. I I know that there’ll be times where I can’t always make you happy. I know that there will be times where I won’t be able to see you because of your family, but know that I really just want to be with you right at that moment and know that I just want to be in your arms. I don’t need you to kiss me every minute like how some couples are because I’d rather you just surprise me. I’ll love it when you make me laugh, even if it’s something completely stupid, a cheesy joke, a silly face, anything, I’ll love it. I’ll introduce you to my friends if you want and you can introduce me to yours, but that really doesn’t matter to me. Knowing you is good enough for me. I won’t fall for any of boys because why would I want them when I have you? I just hope that you can do the same. I’ll watch movies with you all day if you wanted to - your favorite movies, my favorite movies, new movies, any movie. We can go to the park and run around you can chase me around the playground. We can stay up all night on the phone and not even say anything to each other. I’ll do everything ber..

Love,

R

I don’t know what you are doing now, where your thoughts are wandering, or even what the sky looks like from where you’re standing. I wanted to let you know that I’m okay, I’m not bawling like an idiot, nor have I felt my heart break especially since you leave. I’m strong, but you already knew that.

I don’t understand what’s going on. I don’t deserve this, and I don’t deserve to be treated this way. My heart is breaking, and the person causing this damage is genuinely the one person I never thought would actually hurt me like this.

You’ve promised me so much, and you know just how much a promise means to me. You have never given me a reason to not trust you. I don’t understand.

I simply physically do not get it.

You’re pushing away and ruining a perfectly good relationship, and I don’t even know why. I haven’t done anything. I never thought you’d be the one to hurt me this badly. I know you too well to give up on you, but I feel like that’s really the only option I have left. I don’t deserve to be treated like this. I’ve done nothing but support and care for you.

Not being with you is difficult. It’s probably one of the most difficult things that I’ve done; it’s hard trying to fit a puzzle together when you’re missing a piece.

I loved you, and I hate what you’re doing to me. There’s so much more I want to say to you, and trust me they’re not as calm as this.

Love,

I don’t know what happened between us. We just seemed to drift apart. After all we’ve been through… The things we said, the fun we had, the times we shared.
Can you look at me now? And tell me you never really cared? I know my insecurities makes you frustrated and mad

The memories of our times together burn like a fire in my soul. Sometimes all I can think about is you. And I really lose control!

I am sorry
You think I am wrong for loving you
But you have to believe me… I REALLY DO! I know there have been others for you, But none could love you as I do.
When I remember the life we created together And how when it ended I was shattered. I wish we could have shared so much…

My life seems so empty.  
And I have to keep telling myself that no matter what, everything’s going to be okay.

And you have all the memories as I do too.
Maybe one day I will be able to smile again, letting the smile come from my heart.

But I am still trying to put the pieces back together, that you tore, so mercilessly, apart.
 
Well, I guess, you have to tell me what are we always fighting about, cause I really don’t know.

I know you loved me, too.
You said you did…
But I guess you never loved me as much as I love you.
I’ve been through worse
And I can get through this, too.
I will not try to find anyone else.
Because right now, all I can think about is you….

Please tell me what happened Ber……

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adalah saat minta diperhatiin

tapi

You didn’t even say at least “Hi” to me when we met.

Oh ya, saya tahu, kita emang ngga pernah berbicara langsung didepan orang lain. Saya tahu alasannya. Tapi, hei, saya ada didepan kamu loh. 

Kamu mau pergi kemana dan sama siapa itu bukan urusan saya. Toh, saya bilang kan saya ngga peduli dengan kamu.

Walaupun sebenarnya, saya peduli. Saat saya mengatakan bahwa saya ngga akan merhatiin kamu, saya bohong. Saat kamu bilang kamu mau saya perhatiin, saya ingin sekali teriak, lari kedepan pintu kamu, dan bilang, “lo ngga usah minta juga gw udah sangat peduli sama lo”’

Saya juga ngga maksa kamu untuk say Hi sama saya loh. Tapi kamu juga ngga bisa maksa saya untuk merhatiin kamu lagi ya, deal? :P

Baru 1 menit aku ngepost di twitter untuk kamu, tiba2 kamu muncul dihadapanku. Kukira malam ini ngga akan ketemu kamu. simcardku rusak. otomatis aku ngga bisa dihubungi kemanapun. voucher wi-fi habis. aku ngga bisa online. tapi aku kaget saat melihat kamu tiba2 berdiri didepan situ. dan dengan bodohnya aku terlihat senang saat melihat kamu. sebel sih kamu harus buru2 pulang krna udah malem, tp kalo aku bisa bilang langsung ke kamu, aku mau bilang, makasih bgt waktunya, makasih bgt udah nemenin, makasih udah tiba2 muncul didepan. sekarang aku cuma bisa nunggu kamu sampe rumah dan online. simcardku bner2 rusak, gara2 kamu :p ya, gara2 kamu hehe kamu yang maksa aku untuk ganti telkomsel, tapi ternyata invalid sim card, dan pas aku ganti lagi jd indosat eh malah ga bisa juga. tanggung jawab! btw, see you and semangat buat besok. good luck, boss! :)

butthetruthis:

But the truth is…

They’re just saying that because their day has been going well so far.

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